Thursday, October 25, 2007

Conversation

Q: How are you feeling now?
A: I don't know. Weird. Restless.Tired. Pensive. Puzzled. A little disturbed.
Q: Why? I thought you were happy the way things are.
A: I'm not saying that I'm sad. Maybe a little disappointed.
Q: Disappointment comes when expectations are unmet. Were you expecting something?
A: Well, no, not really. At least I thought I wasn't. I don't know. It's weird. Two weeks ago I was in a good place. Now, I'm not so sure.
Q: Hmm. Some good things never last.
A: Yeah. I guess after such a high, there's no way to go but down.
Q: So what now?
A: Now? I don't know. I should probably stop overthinking and just roll with this. Whatever this is.
Q: Are there regrets?
A: (Thinking) No. Absolutely not.
Q: Good. Like you always say, you lose more when you hold back. Seize the day, right?
A: Right. Although right now I'm thinking, could those just be justifications for impulsiveness?
Q: Do you think you're impulsive?
A: When it comes to these things, yes.
Q: And? Is that a bad thing?
A: When it comes to these things, yes. And no.
Q: These things?
A: Yeah, these things.
Q: Okay. So why yes?
A: Because life's too short to be emotionally constipated. Sometimes you just gotta take the leap and live a little.
Q: Okay. And why no?
A: Because you end up writing things like this at past 12 in the morning, which isn't a good idea when you have to wake up early for work the next day.
Q: Noted. So in conclusion, anong mas matimbang, yes or no?
A: Knowing myself, I would go for yes.
Q: Shouldn't there be a balance?
A: Ideally, yes. That's what I'm working on.
Q: That's good.
A: I'm feeling a bit better. Sleepy, actually.
Q: O go. Sleep na. Rest that overthinking brain of yours.
A: Will do.

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